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Wow, it's been a while since I've written here. And the funny thing is, I have a dozen or so blog drafts on practically everywhere: in my email Drafts, in my mobile phone, in my notebooks. A few more notepad drafts hang around my PCs both at home and at the office.

But not one of those drafts has gotten into being stamped forever onto this tiny place in the net. It's weird that, when I try real hard to finish some drafts, I end up not finishing them at all [no pun intended]. Even recent important happenings in my life have yet to make it here: my 29th birthday, Valentine's Day [as if there was anything to talk about! haha but still, I think the occasion calls for a few words on love or whatnots at least], my one year as contributing writer to a local magazine, etc.

I don't know if the lack of consistent entries is because I'm just plain lazy or I'm preoccupied with a lot of other stuff. Well, whatever the reasons are, I just need to start somewhere, or should I say end something? End some blog entries, that is.

Anyway, gotta find those drafts wherever they are, and get on with them. Soon, this blog will be flooded by waaaaay late posts.

*end blabber fest*

Word of the Day: FAITH

It is easy to show faith when a crowd is in front of you, but how is your faith when nobody is looking?

It is easy to practice faith when everything is going well, but how is your faith when everything has been taken away from you?

It is easy to have faith when you see a glimpse of light in the horizon, but how is your faith, when everywhere you turn, all you see is darkness?

Faith is never defined by raised hands and loud singing, neither by extravagant service nor eloquent prayers.

Faith is in abandoning the comfortable and the familiar for a greater calling. It is in the readiness to face adversity, knowing that your Father will never abandon you. It is in relinquishing control of your life and believing in the God that holds your future.

Faith is never external, never measurable, never seen by the naked eye. Faith is between you and your God.

So, how is your faith?

Must. Not. Collapse.

A fraction of an inch more from the edge of my seat and I would have found myself too close for comfort with the light brown God-knows-how-dirty office carpet.

No, I wasn't dozing off to Neverland. I was working nonstop the whole day, mind you.

But in the middle of the slavery, all of a sudden, the whole universe was spinning lightning speed. I felt like being trapped inside a whirlwind; I had to hold on to my worktable to secure myself.

I remained seated, nails almost digging on the wooden table, but I could see myself slowly falling to my right, as if gravity thought I was an apple from a tree. I uttered, "God, help."

A few minutes more, I was able to regain my balance. The short prayer must have done it, but a drilling headache came after. I rubbed my temples, hoping the massage would ease it.

In a few, the sides of my forehead have shown a tinge of pink from all the rubbing. The headache eventually passed. I thanked God I was still OK.

The past weeks of heavy workload must have taken its toll on me. Can I blame aging for that? That precisely is the point why a simple case of headache and losing balance would make it to this blog.

For the longest time that I have been toiling on this job, yesterday's was probably the worst case of dizziness I've felt. Nearly collapsing was never part of my to-do list. 

Before, I would go to office and render overtime work until I can, or until the workload was done. Now, I cannot stay long hours at work for days without my shoulders reaching the floor and me all worn out and tired. Headaches have been a constant companion too.

That led me to think that I really am not getting any younger and that I need to take a serious look at my lifestyle. Work-life balance has completely gone off the window the past few weeks. Give me more weeks like these, or just let me dig my grave please. haha!

Seriously though, I have to bring my social life back. They say good company makes for happy people, and happiness and laughter induce good health. It doesn't matter whether that's true or not; I just need to balance my life now: just enough work, just enough play.

So there, just typed in a few words and now off to work again. Here's to hoping I won't have to dig my nails onto the table this time around.