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Wow, it's been a while since I've written here. And the funny thing is, I have a dozen or so blog drafts on practically everywhere: in my email Drafts, in my mobile phone, in my notebooks. A few more notepad drafts hang around my PCs both at home and at the office.

But not one of those drafts has gotten into being stamped forever onto this tiny place in the net. It's weird that, when I try real hard to finish some drafts, I end up not finishing them at all [no pun intended]. Even recent important happenings in my life have yet to make it here: my 29th birthday, Valentine's Day [as if there was anything to talk about! haha but still, I think the occasion calls for a few words on love or whatnots at least], my one year as contributing writer to a local magazine, etc.

I don't know if the lack of consistent entries is because I'm just plain lazy or I'm preoccupied with a lot of other stuff. Well, whatever the reasons are, I just need to start somewhere, or should I say end something? End some blog entries, that is.

Anyway, gotta find those drafts wherever they are, and get on with them. Soon, this blog will be flooded by waaaaay late posts.

*end blabber fest*

Word of the Day: FAITH

It is easy to show faith when a crowd is in front of you, but how is your faith when nobody is looking?

It is easy to practice faith when everything is going well, but how is your faith when everything has been taken away from you?

It is easy to have faith when you see a glimpse of light in the horizon, but how is your faith, when everywhere you turn, all you see is darkness?

Faith is never defined by raised hands and loud singing, neither by extravagant service nor eloquent prayers.

Faith is in abandoning the comfortable and the familiar for a greater calling. It is in the readiness to face adversity, knowing that your Father will never abandon you. It is in relinquishing control of your life and believing in the God that holds your future.

Faith is never external, never measurable, never seen by the naked eye. Faith is between you and your God.

So, how is your faith?

Concise

Had a fruitful interview for K mag last night.

Each line she threw is a validation of everything I felt before. Every question she has now is the very one I tried to find answers for then. All her realizations are the same wisdom God continues to teach me now.

It's funny that, in trying to learn more about another person, I know more about myself.

Cobwebs

I had to remove cobwebs before I started typing onto this.

It has been quite a well since I wrote. Party because  didn't feel like it. Partly because I wanted but can't seem to get my thoughts organized.

If my mind were a flow of stream, it would be most turbulent this time. And the water would be all murky and disappointing. It had been quite a tough week, an emotional battle really. There hasn't been a day that I had not fought against unwelcome thoughts. And that had just left me tired and just plain conceding.

But then, the scripture today said, "For people, it may be impossible but not with God." And I would like to sincerely believe that I can do this, with God.

Here I am, oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My broken heart
I offer up my life
I look to you Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again...

Restore me oh Lord. My broken heart is Yours for the taking. Shield me from what is not Yours. Restore me.